Love and how it comes

By Linda Apollo

I don’t think I have experienced love in my life. Have you? Yes I have loved and been loved but
something was always missing. When was the last time someone told you they loved you? Was it simply
a gesture of gratitude?
I want a love that does not wait for one day to show what they can show you everyday. I am waiting for
a love that does not expect love back. I am waiting for a love that scream so loud but does not care that
I am deaf. I am waiting for a love that will not claim I hurt it, that I did not appreciate it. That I could not
stay and fight for it.
I want a love that takes time to understand my past, my traumas and my triggers so that if the time
comes when my wounds surface, they would understand why and see me through the lens of
compassion.
I am waiting for a love that speaks my language so that I do not have to spend my entire life explaining
my spirit because if you love someone you feel it, speak it, show it, be it. If you don’t feel inspired to
show your love in this multidimensional manner, be kind enough to let go so they can find someone
who will.
I am waiting for a person who allows me to be vulnerable. A person who picks up on my energy even
when we are miles away. A person who cares to see me. To love me even when I am unable to love
myself. A person who reminds me that we are better together. I want a person who pays attention. A
person who reaches for my hand when we are in a crowded place.
Some love will come with endings and endings will lead to pain. But pain will lead to lessons, lessons will
lead to learning about yourself and what you seek. Maybe the next love will come with reason. That
reason will add clarity to the previous pain and heartbreak you never thought you would get over.
Remember, a love that lasts forever is made of so many loves that did stay for that reason.
Maybe we are never prepared enough for love.We really don’t fall in love. We just stop making
everything about ourselves and love floods into the space selfishness leaves behind~BG
I need you to believe in love more than everything else in the world. I want you to believe in love
because when we live another, we face our shit. We face our limitations. We see where we lack skills.
We see how bad our communication can be. When we turn towards love, towards a person who sees
our light and wants to love us deeply. We appreciate what it means to face a feeling we have not felt
worthy of for sometime. To live is easy. To be loved requires the belief that we are worthy of it and that
the only way to feel worthy is to allow yourself to be.