Note To Self

Maybe right now your journey is about being alone. Maybe this is the season you are being challenged to learn how to wake up in the middle of the bed. To finally find hope in the vacancy, hope in the quiet, hope in the way you stretch into your life, and give yourself permission to take up space within it.

Maybe right now you are being shown that you can take care of yourself, that you can depend on the person you have become, that you can be your own home no matter how life tries to weather you.

Maybe right now your journey isn’t about life. Maybe right now your journey is about hope. Maybe this is the season you are being challenged to remind yourself of the beauty life has to offer you. Maybe right now you are being given the space to discover the kinds of places that leave your bones dripping with feeling, the kinds of people, who live you in a way that does not seek to change you. Maybe right now you are being given a chance to reclaim your joy, to make it the most natural extension of who you are, to let it spill out of your words and your laughter, your tears to let it be something you believe you are worthy of, to let it be something you believe you deserve.

Maybe right now your journey is about you. Maybe tho is the season you are being challenged to be your own savior. Yo be your own safe space. Maybe right now you are being reminded that the people who walked away were only ever leading you back to yourself, they were only ever leading you here. And here you are okay on your own. Here you are rebuilding, you are adapting, mending, and reclaiming all the pieces you let them walk away with. Here you are being kinder to your soul. You are not rushing your heart. You are not depending on another human being to fix it.

Instead, here you are doing that on your own. Here you are healing. Love yourself incredibly well, make your healing a top priority. Follow through on your goals and do not worry about how others will react to that level of focused energy. Today is a great day to start forgiving yourself. Forgive yourself for accepting less than you deserved but do not do it again.

You are allowed to forgive yourself in parts. The past is too heavy to deal with all in one moment or one phase. You are allowed to forgive yourself in parts until you feel whole again. Healing is weird. Some days you are okay and you are doing just fine. Other days it still hurts like it’s fresh. Keep going and know that when all is said and done, you are going to be okay. Allow yourself to be proud of yourself and all the progress you have made. Especially the progress that no one else can see.

Remember that the cure to self-sabotage is to anchor yourself to the universal truth that you are worth it. You are worth the effort. You are worth the difficulty, you are worth the time, and you are worth the consideration. There is never a point in your life in time itself that you are not worth it.

Return to this truth when you feel yourself slipping. Do not let go.